I'm growing up!

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Something that's pretty amazing, that most of you may know about me: I used to be terrified of childbirth. Like, horrified... and absolutely positive I could never do it. At least not without a lot (and I mean a lot a lot) of drugs.

The process of becoming a mother is amazing. Now, not only am I no longer terrified... I'm actually excited for it and pretty sure I am going to attempt to do it 100% naturally. I don't want to go into the hospital to deliver, mentally giving myself the "out" of an epidural... because in a weak moment, I may take it even if it's not absolutely necessary.

I just want to see how I do... I know people with a WAY lower pain-tolerance than me that have done it all naturally, and my competitive side is crossing her arms over her chest, glaring, and thinking... I can do that, too. TELL ME I CAN'T.

I can't believe I'm even considering no epidural. It's so funny how brave we become, the closer we get. Childbirth is like the ultimate right of passage into "womanhood". I'm actually (oddly) excited to be in pain, and to feel what it feels like to bring a human being into this world. I want to feel everything.

And believe me, I'm not an idiot - if there are complications or if an epidural would help me or the baby, I'm not going to be ashamed to get one. My sister ended up getting one after planning for an all-natural birth, and she said it was the best thing in the world. She didn't beat herself up for it, and I wouldn't either.

Now, I'm sure if you were to read me this post DURING a contraction, I would probably punch you in the face (or myself), but I think it's pretty amazing how God prepares you to care for a new life.

I'm getting maternal! What is HAPPENING.

7 comments:

  1. ask your doctor if he/she can recommend any good videos of natural births! i know that really fueled me to go for it, and i won't even have a chance for epidural doing a home birth...eeek. and i know you already know how powerful a good natural birth story can be ;)

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  2. Proud of you for making your own decisions! You will know what is right when you get to that moment - it is all very exciting, and it really does all go so fast. Just make sure someone fixes your hair before you take your first picture with your little boy - I was SO sweaty my bangs here a HOT MESS and no one fixed them!!!! So I am passing that on to you - do a quick hair check - if you push for any length of time like I had to, there will be massive bed head and sweaty clumps of disheveled hair. Some ladies say you won't care, which in that moment they are right, you won't. But I am trying to save you the feeling I had a month after looking at pictures saying WHAT THE HECK DIDN'T ANYONE SEE WHAT A HOT MESS I WAS????

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  3. ^^ Lindsay is SO right! Have a quick hair fix, a possible application of some powder and gloss. In the moment you won't care, but now when I look at the pictures of myself I think "UGH". :)

    I am proud of you for even making this post! i have always said, that childbirth really wasn't that bad. And I was in labor for awhile (with no drugs!!). I would relive that day, even the final hour of pushing OVER AND OVER AND OVER again. It is the most glorious, natural, amazing moment ever. AND you have such an incredible husband that I KNOW will be with you every step of the way.

    Enjoy each moment. Epidural or no epidural, you my friend, will ROCK CHILDBIRTH! I can't wait! Love you!

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  4. ha ha ha! I'm terrified of it too! I really hope that when/ if I ever get pregnant my body will help me relax about childbirth and I will embrace it bc right now... just the thought makes me sooooo scared. But I'm so excited for you! Can't wait to see your little bundle of joy! :)

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  5. Hi Corianne, I found your blog through A Cup of Jo - congratulations on your upcoming baby boy! I had a baby boy in April 2011 and did it drug-free. It was mind-blowingly difficult but I'm so happy/proud I did! If you're interested in natural birth, you should check out a Bradley Method course. It's non-judgey and helpful and cool :)

    Good luck!

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  6. Natural birth is totally doable! I did it and I have no tolerance or pain, haha. Don't let people freak you out. Sure, it hurts. It hurt a lot getting from 8 to 10 cm, but it is manageable pain, and you do get breaks between contractions. Just wanted to send some encouragement your way! You can do it!!

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  7. Thank you ALL for the encouragement! Just wanted to say it here, just in case you didn't see my thank you POST :)

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