The Last Thanksgiving

Thursday, November 22, 2012

It's 11:50 on Thanksgiving night, 2012.

Its really weird to think that it's over. It's really weird to think that I will never know Thanksgiving without you around!

So much has happened in the past few weeks since I've posted. I've FINALLY finished your room. There were parts of me that never thought I would finish it.

I did a 21 day fast with the staff at work. I fasted COFFEE (Word of Advice: If you're reading this with a cup of coffee in your hand: stop reading take a deep breath in; smell the Americano that you are drinking. Then, take a long sip of coffee... then think about not having it for 21 days.) Fasting coffee was a huge achievement for me - not because I went without coffee for 21 days, but because I completed it and didn't cheat once. I saw it through, all the way until the end. This was really important for me.

A couple other things that happened were Obama got re-elected, Uncle Andy and Jen got pregnant (We never thought that we'd see that happen), we got new couches and I didn't even have to use my AK (Ice Cube reference - ask me about it later)

Today really made me think though about how thankful I am for this time that your mom and I are in. I'm thankful for the new things that we are experiencing. I feel so grown up; we are learning responsibility really fast. Learning that we actually have to wash things before we just throw them on your bed. Learning how to put carseats in cars and do it right, learning how to not be selfish but really think about what moves we are going to make that are either going to affect you positively or negatively. Today, I realized how thankful I am for your Grammy and Opa, Grandma and Grandpa: they already love you so much. They are doing so much to make sure that when you come into this world, you have everything you need. I'm thankful for their experience and wisdom.

I literally am having the hardest time waiting for you. Back to the fast for a second, this is what I want you to take away from this: waiting, although seems hard at times, can have the biggest reward if seen through all the way to the end. There were points during the fast that I felt sorry for your poor mother, who had to endure me during that time. There were points where I felt like the end was never going to come. If I look at the blessings that came during the fast, though, it's almost unbearable to think about. One blessing after the other came through that.

You are blessed, and are a huge blessing. Although waiting is so hard right now, I know how blessed we are going to be when you enter our lives.

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